well this new man has come and gone. he cheated on me with some girl he works with and is back with his ex girlfriend CAROL FUCKING BOWMAN. just saying that makes me sick to my stomach.to quote cody kimbrough she is "hot dog down a hallway" skanky bitch! well last monday i found an empty condom wrapper in his car and knew that it wasnt from us (we dont have sex in his car anymore) so i called up josh on tuesday (yes valentines day) and we fucked in his truck AGAIN. haha bitch 2 can play at this game. and then mike had carol call me on sunday to tell me that he wanted to dump me so i beat him to it and dumped him first. asshole! oh well i am obviously too good for him if he is going to leave me for her. my man is out there somewhere. i just dont know where yet

well a new man has entered my life and swept me off my feet. his name is mike. 6 feet tall, skinny, brown hair, brown eyes, soooooooooooooo fucking cute. and he is amazing. my parents love him. we spend almost all of our time together and he drives, has a job, ya know the works. i am lucky to have him

my goodness, look who's back! c'est moi! so much has happened since i last updated. i reverted back to old habits and cut myself again....more then once. cody was pissed because i promised him that i wouldn't but did it anyway. but now, i solemly vow, NO MORE CUTTING! my sis came to visit, always awesomely awesome. she really is the best sister in the whole wide world. i love her to death. me and cody are....complicated. on and off. boyfriend/ girlfriend. then friends with many many benefits. now we're boyfriend/ girlfriend again. i'm really happy either way, so it's all good. i can't really complain. life isnt a cake walk, but i have it a lot better then some people do.

10 Things y0u l0ve
1.cody
2.The Used
3.life
4.green
5.drawing
6.writing
7.sex
8.chevy cobalt
9.food
10.friends

9 Things y0u want
1. cody
2. new computer
3. to dye my hair red
4. peirce my nose
5. a tattoo
6. a cell phone
7. something to eat
8. more snow outside
9. chocolate

8 Cl0se Friends
1. Cody
2. Behai
3. Wes
4. Tim
5. Rachel
6. Josh
7. Sarah
8. Christina

7 Fav0rite m0vies
1. The Notebook
2. House of Sand and Fog
3. How to lose a guy in 10 days
4. Anger Management
5. 10 Things I hate About you
6. 50 First Dates
7. Saw

6 Fav0rite F00ds
1. pepperoni and mushroom pizza
2. tuna fish
3. french fries
4. spagetti
5. mac and cheese
6. subs from subway

5 Fav0rite TV sh0ws
1. E.R.
2. Charmed
3. That 70's Show
4. 7th Heaven
5. Family Guy

4 Favorite family members
1. Christina
2. Mom
3. Josh
4. Dad

3 Fav0rite mem0ries
1. That day at the mall with Cody
2. The darkroom in photography
3. Me, Lindsey, Theresa, and Ryan's love conversations

2 Regrets
1. skipping school back in march
2. quitting gymnastics

1 True l0ve
1. duh, cody

alright ladies and gentlemen, here we go! cody and tysha, round 2

this is such a crappy feeling i have right now. josh is going to be upset i know it. i can't believe i actually miss cody. what the hell is wrong with me? damn it i wish i knew how to fix this mess i am in. grrrrrrrrrrrrr. this really sucks.

josh asked me out last night, or this morning depending on how you look at it (it was about 1:30). i said yes (big surprise) and i am in a soothing state of happiness today. so yes i am officially the girlfriend of an air force man. he is so amazing and he makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. there is a downside though: he's in iraq and won't be home till february and that is 3 MONTHS AWAY!!!!! i miss him and i cant wait till he gets home so we can actually be together.i keep having flashbacks of that night in the bed of his chevy truck back in june. woooohoooo good times!

cody called me yesterday. he says he wants to be friends like we promised we would be. him and desiree are back together, which i don't understand because i heard from certain individuals that he isn't happy with her. i mean yes he hurt me but i dont want him to be unhappy. i dont hate him anymore, even though the grudge is still somewhat present. talking to josh (who is in iraq)is really putting things in perspective for me. things dont get to me anymore like they used to. he is talking about possibly having a relationship of some kind when he gets back in february but i dont know how i feel about that. i mean i like him and he's cute and he's a really good guy but i don't know about the whole military girlfriend thing. i dont see how people do it. well february is a few months away so we'll see what happens.

mscodykimbrough says in her bio:
I LOVE HIS SEXY MAN BOOBS! I LOVE HIS OVER BITE NO CHIN!

uhhhhhhhhh wow that's ummmm interesting

anyway, williamsport won last night 57 to 0 in football and we beat boonsboro in volleyball. i'm not sure what's going on between me and dan. i might get a job at old navy just for christmas. i miss rachel. mike shubel is an awesome guy. i feel sorry for behai and her bad situation(it's oh so familiar) dan is really hot. life is good.

Take the quiz: "THE BEST GAY TEST!! ARE YOU LESBIAN/BI/STRAIGHT!?"

You're sitting on the fence u dirty bisexual!
Hmm.. nothing quite pleases you... too many decisions... You just do what you feel like in the moment and good 4 you! Getting the best of both worlds isn't a bad way to go about things...

last football game of the season tomorrow night at 7 against clearspring. guaranteed win? pretty much yeah. goooooooo cats, especially #80 Dan Myers. wahoooooooo Dan! can we say yum? i mean really. how cute is he? and how cute is his ass in a pair of khakis? looking at him makes me grin like a fool and i just wanna grab him and kiss him and......lol just kidding. *sighs* dan.

Gave Daniel my phone number today so *crosses fingers* we'll see!!!! Got big hugs and kisses from Wes today. Bless that boy's heart, I love him for being the friend he is. All in all it was a good day. Then I went to Wal Mart and saw Cody's mom, brother, and his bro's girlfriend. It brought back the hurt and I cried the whole way home. I had to call Wes to calm myself down. Ahhhh life, sometimes it sucks and sometimes it doesn't

TO:LINDSEY, CHRISTINA, WES, AMBER, BEHAI, TIM, AMANDA, and EVERYONE ELSE
i just want to say THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart to all of you awesomely awesome people for helping me through my hard days (today and yesterday) and for listening to me rant and complain about love and how much it really can kick you in the ass and knock you flat on your face if you're not careful and for emphasizing to me one very important point: i am going to be okay.

and of course to CODY:
i'm sorry that we couldn't find some way to work this out for the both of us without us breaking up, but you know what, it was fun while it lasted and i don't regret it all. being friends with you is all i need because you truly are an amazing person and i hope what's her name makes you happy for as long as you're together, however short or long a period of time that is (hopefully a long one :) )

so yeah, i really like D****** and if i actually get the courage to ask him if he wants to hang out somewhere, ya know, outside of english or american history then i dunno, we'll have to see what happens.

it's soon i know, but i'm going for it. ****** *. ***** (name censored) here i come baby!

so yeah me and cody are over, but i'm not exactly sure how i feel about it. i mean yes i am wickedly upset but i still want to be friends. i don't hate him for what he did.i'm glad he told me. i'm just broken hearted but i'll get over it i suppose. this sucks though. i really loved him and i still do.

been such a long time since i've seen your sweet face it makes me wanna shed tears, lots and lots of tears.

on another note, i should have updated thursday about this but i didn't. i had one of the most enlightening convo's in photography. lindsey and theresa know what i'm talking about. it made me realize a few things:
1. i really love cody
2. love is an AMAZING thing
3. ryan heavner is going to make his future wife VERY HAPPY. like seriously, i got to know a whole new ryan and i must say i am impressed. he really has a lot of substance to him.
4. oddly enough, everything i want in a guy are the qualities cody has

wonder where you are right now, and are you thinking of me as much as i am thinking of you? i hope so. i miss you. i have something important to discuss with you, cuz i finally did what you told me to do like a few days ago (ya know, that discussion i was postponing for, as i have now found out, NO REASON!). where are you damn it?!?!?! i need you........

me and cody broke up last night......for a whole 5 minutes. it was a very scary 5 minutes though. but we're okay now. i was feeling really down today, so i gave him a call and he said the most amazing thing to me, something that i so desperately needed to hear after last night. "we're gonna be okay. i love you". it was music to my ears. i still have hope for us, and even if it turns out to be a losing battle, i am gonna fight for cody until i can't fight anymore.

"Bless The Broken Road"
I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

Now I’m just rollin’ home into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road that led me straight to you

Every Girl's Dream
1. Get kissed in the rain
2. Have that one hott kiss where your pressed against the wall
3. Have a guy that thinks you're the world
4. Have a guy that holds on as long as possible when giving hugs
5. A boy that whispers he loves you in your ear
6. Have that moment where you just gaze into eachother's eyes
7. When you cry, he kisses your tears away.
8. When you're not with your guy he's all that you can think about
9. Wearing his jacket and everytime you breath in, his scent surrounds you
10. A guy who will watch any movie with you, no matter how teary eyed you may get.
11. A guy who squeezes your hand
12. A boy that says he loves you and means it
13. A guy that will play her favorite song outside her window
14. A guy who is loyal
15. A guy that will sing to you no matter how bad he is at it.
16. A guy that will kiss you on the forehead.
17. A guy that will call you beautiful or adorable...not hot, fine, or sexy
18. A guy that will never judge you for how you look.
19. A boy that says cheezy stuff to you just to make u smile
20. A boy that is the same when he is with you and when with friends
21. A boy that tells you everything honestly
22. A boy that is good with your family and introduces you to his family
23. A guy that will always let you win
24. A guy who stands up for you no matter who it is against
25. A guy who calls you at night just to say 'hi' and see how your day has been
26. A boy who tells you that your smile makes his day and makes everything better
27. A boy who will sit on the phone with you when you're sad, even if you're quiet
28. A boy who you can hangout and have fun with
29. A boy that will just randonmly call you for no reason at all, just because he missed you
30. A guy who will hold your hand through the roughest parts of life.
31. A guy who would love you forever no matter the circumstance.
32. A guy who wouldn't mind you wanting to get all dressed up and do your make up for him. Even if he says he likes you better without make up.
33. A guy who you can be yourself with and he will never give a care and would still tell you that you are amazing to him.
34. A guy who runs his fingers through your hair, like he's washing your worries/troubles away.
35. A guy who tells you you make his day better, just for being you

never been this scared before. i feel so distant from cody and i'm afraid that these past several days are the beginning of our demise. but i'm trying to stay hopeful and i'm not giving up until all hope is lost. cody, gosh damn it, i love you with all of my heart. please don't give up on me. i need you too much.